It's Aqilaa. Believe me, I'm fourteen and I go to Hogwarts. I'm not a Directioner since torn but I promise I'll be here till the end cause that's what matter most ♥
This is about my short fic. Ahaha i actually wanted to write a one shot but it turned out quite long. So i decided to change it into a short fic. There will probably be only 2 or 3 parts. I just posted part 1 (GO READ IT!) and i haven’t start writing part 2 yet, but yea part 2 is coming up soon. Maybe i’ll start writing after my midterm exam ends.
It just passed dusk and I’m taking a stroll in the park- enjoying the cold breeze. With both hands tucked in my trench coat’s pockets, I walk to the swing and take a sit on it. I move the swing slowly while humming the song You and Me by Lifehouse. “That’s our song, isn’t it?” I heard a voice coming from my back. I turn around and saw a figure. A manly figure. It’s Louis. Louis Tomlinson. He’s wearing chinos with a red and white stripes shirt. And not to forget, his dark blue hoodie.
He chuckles. Probably because of my expression.
“Hi Kate,” he says as he settle down on the swing besides me.
“Hey there Tommo,” I replied.
“So how are you doing?”
“I’m doing great. Um, you?”
“Same here. But we’re quite busy lately though, with tours and such.”
“Yea I get it… It’s been a while right?”
“Three years,” he smiles.
“You remembered.”
“Of course,” he look straight into my eyes.
I look away- “Uhh.. so how’s the boys?”
“They’re good, fun and cheerful as always. Um but recently…” His voice slows down a bit.
“What?” I asks with a curious tone.
“Aha nevermind, it’s nothing actually. Just some stupid unimportant incident. They misses you so much, you know? Including me. I really miss you.”
When he said that, I kind of felt something but I’m not real sure what it is. Am I actually getting butterflies because of Lou? Could it be love? It can’t be, cause we broke up three years ago. That’s quite a long time to still feel ‘something’ for someone. Wait, but it kinda make sense though. We didn’t broke up because we lost feelings for each other. We broke up because…
Back in the past
“Lou, we need to talk. It’s about us.” I grabbed his hand.
He seemed really worried. “What is it, love? What’s wrong?”
I looked down. “Let’s um.. let’s break up,” as my voice breaks. I tried to stop the tears from falling but I just can’t.
“What?!” he shouted in shocked.
“Let’s break up!” I raised my voice as I repeat those three words. I knew he heard them clearly in the first place but he just can’t accept it.
A tear streamed down his face. “But why? I don’t think there’s anything wrong with this relationship.” There’s silence between us for a second. “Do you have someone else?”
I saw disappointment in his eyes.
“WWHAT? NO!” I took a deep breath and continued, “Look, there’s nothing wrong with our relationship. Nothing wrong at all. And no, I do not have someone else. It’s not like don’t love you, I do! It’s just about you getting big and famous. You’re not gonna have time for me anymore in the future- you’re going to start touring all over the country and you’re gonna be surrounded by thousands of gorgeous girls. I just can’t stand the idea of seeing them flirting with you. And I‘m afraid that someday all these popularity will get to your head and you’ll just forget about me.” I was getting hiccups because of the crying.
His eyes were all red and almost swollen. “I promise I won’t flirt with any of them. I promise that I won’t be anything like you just said. I won’t change, I will still be me. Kate please… I don’t want you to leave me and I am not going to leave you either.” He was sobbing.
“Listen, we can’t predict the future. You might say that now, but who knows? And you have to know that people do change, Lou. People do change.”
“But Kate, I love you. And I know that you love me too. I’m not ready for this, I need you.”
“Yes I know that you love me. I love you too, even more. Do you actually think that I’m ready for all these? My boyfriend being a member of a rising and popular boy band? I’m totally not ready too. I know that this is really selfish of me, but I just can’t risk to experience a heartbreak. I hope you understand.” I wiped the tears on his face.
“Then how about me? You’re leaving me, it also breaks-”
I cut him off before he could continue his words. “Look, it’s breaking me too you know. Do you think that it’s easy for me to do this? To confront you, to leave you? Well it’s not!” I shouted.
He looked down to his feet- he seemed speechless. I could feel his chest rising and falling simultaneously. I knew he was broken and disappointed, all because of me.
Here’s the thing, I ain’t pretty and I’m fat, stupid, short and mean etc. That’s what I know about myself. And I don’t think any compliments could change my thoughts just like they can before.
